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plotrevised) wrote2024-09-25 12:29 am
plotrevised) wrote2024-09-25 12:29 am
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Court Inbox
[ phone | text | action | etc. ]
[ phone | text | action | etc. ]
That does not surprise me. You are infuriating, but you are perceptive. And spiteful enough that you’d refuse as soon as you notice the attempt.
We are very similar, after all.
We are very similar, after all.
[horrible thing to admit to aloud...]
... I can't deny that at this point.
... I can't deny that at this point.
Then what is it for you? How do you seek your own oblivion?
[ a pause, then he adds ]
You do not have to answer. I simply wish to understand you.
[ a pause, then he adds ]
You do not have to answer. I simply wish to understand you.
[looks around the library because.
honestly, it hurts more to admit it to anyone who doesn't really get it?]
... I've already obtained it, once.
My stories were scattered, and the story I wanted to continue would be able to continue because of it. I wouldn't have to be... Kim Dokja any longer.
But something happened, a story somewhere agreed to help a princess with her story, and so.
[gestures at himself, a bit bitterly.]
--it's not that I don't wish there couldn't be another way to go about it. Or that I'm still--... I haven't... settled... on which direction to go about it going forward.
[but also, pursuing Queen for the power for it, regardless.]
honestly, it hurts more to admit it to anyone who doesn't really get it?]
... I've already obtained it, once.
My stories were scattered, and the story I wanted to continue would be able to continue because of it. I wouldn't have to be... Kim Dokja any longer.
But something happened, a story somewhere agreed to help a princess with her story, and so.
[gestures at himself, a bit bitterly.]
--it's not that I don't wish there couldn't be another way to go about it. Or that I'm still--... I haven't... settled... on which direction to go about it going forward.
[but also, pursuing Queen for the power for it, regardless.]
[ He doesn’t know what “stories” are, in this context, but he can get the gist of it. He can tell what the heart of the matter is.
They truly are similar ]
You do not need to justify such a feeling with me.
To embrace death, or to live on.
I am also not sure of which path I wish to take.
They truly are similar ]
You do not need to justify such a feeling with me.
To embrace death, or to live on.
I am also not sure of which path I wish to take.
[and this is why it's... easier.
other people ask questions, trying to convince him not to, or even challenge him on stopping his wish for Queen if it should go in that direction.
it's... weirdly awkward but not to not meet the resistance there.]
At the very least, as a Master, if I get to Queen, I'll have to ensure my Servants' wishes are cared for. Beyond that...
[yeah, still doesn't know.]
other people ask questions, trying to convince him not to, or even challenge him on stopping his wish for Queen if it should go in that direction.
it's... weirdly awkward but not to not meet the resistance there.]
At the very least, as a Master, if I get to Queen, I'll have to ensure my Servants' wishes are cared for. Beyond that...
[yeah, still doesn't know.]
Do not forget that I fully intend on obtaining that power for my master. We are still on opposing ends.
That said …
I will not say something as ridiculous as “shed your old identity, and make a new one for yourself”. I know full well how impossible that is. But if I cannot wish happiness for myself, perhaps I can wish it for you instead.
That said …
I will not say something as ridiculous as “shed your old identity, and make a new one for yourself”. I know full well how impossible that is. But if I cannot wish happiness for myself, perhaps I can wish it for you instead.
Can someone who can't wish for happiness for themselves wish happiness for others?
Do not be so dense. You wish the same for your Servants, do you not? Even if you do think you can be in the picture for it.
My Master is not different in that regard.
My Master is not different in that regard.
I used the wrong word for that question.
Rather than "can", meaning "capable", the question should be should.
Rather than "can", meaning "capable", the question should be should.
The answer to that is also "yes". Anyone who is not capable of wishing for other people's happiness lacks empathy and humanity.
And that is something I despise.
And that is something I despise.
[...................... don't say it. don't pick the fight. but he is just kind of dead-eyed staring Anaxa down because YOU THINK YOU HAVE ROOM TO JUDGE OTHERS ON THEIR HUMANITY, HUH?]
... most people would find it hypocritical, is what I'm saying.
... most people would find it hypocritical, is what I'm saying.
[ he can tell Kim Dokja must be holding himself back so he will not be even more pedantic and continue on this debate no matter how much he wants to. He's already coming up with arguments and follow up questions in his head but he has to be good. He's here for PEACE ]
Then let's just say that I do not care if it's hypocritical or not. I will wish for you to find happiness regardless of whether it's acceptable for me to do so or not.
Besides, feuding with you has truly been exhausting.
Then let's just say that I do not care if it's hypocritical or not. I will wish for you to find happiness regardless of whether it's acceptable for me to do so or not.
Besides, feuding with you has truly been exhausting.
At least you're smarter than others have been in that area.
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Do not make me regret my words already.
Wasn't it more a compliment to yourself than it was to me? If you're going to compliment me, do it properly.
[... the moment of wondering if he buttonmashed a certain compliment enough that it might have lingering effects (this will happen in our other thread once not at work)]
Hm...
I can admit you're very beautiful, still.
Hm...
I can admit you're very beautiful, still.
[ how
dare
HE!?
There are no lingering effects. Not from the candy, at least. The compliment does not give him any extra pleasure and yet it's effective all the same - a mix of memories resurfacing and just embarrassment. He very quickly looks away, his entire face red as he's frowning, trying to hide the embarrassment as best as he can ]
dare
HE!?
There are no lingering effects. Not from the candy, at least. The compliment does not give him any extra pleasure and yet it's effective all the same - a mix of memories resurfacing and just embarrassment. He very quickly looks away, his entire face red as he's frowning, trying to hide the embarrassment as best as he can ]
Do not interrupt me. Even my silence is worth listening to.
[ Saying that hits a taboo and it is clear with the way his expression looks pained, but he's so embarrassed and he just as clearly needs time to sort himself out. He's even hiding his face for a moment, but once he's gathered the words back all he can come up with is weak ]
And do not be so smug.
[ Saying that hits a taboo and it is clear with the way his expression looks pained, but he's so embarrassed and he just as clearly needs time to sort himself out. He's even hiding his face for a moment, but once he's gathered the words back all he can come up with is weak ]
And do not be so smug.
[frowns because hey. hey, why hitting taboos when that's not the goal here?]
... that's like asking the sky not to be blue.
... that's like asking the sky not to be blue.
That is exactly why you are so infuriating.
. . .
But I will accept that compliment.
. . .
But I will accept that compliment.
Well, good.
... just because I say it to get a reaction doesn't mean it's insincere.
... just because I say it to get a reaction doesn't mean it's insincere.
Do not forget that my beauty is the one "nice" thing about myself I could say back then. You are hardly the first to compliment my beauty. It is my personality that has ever been a problem.
[ but that doesn't make the praise any less effective because yes, he's still embarrassed ]
I am a fair teacher, and so I can admit that you are also reasonably attractive.
[ but that doesn't make the praise any less effective because yes, he's still embarrassed ]
I am a fair teacher, and so I can admit that you are also reasonably attractive.
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