Yes. And what does that say about the both of us, that the only time we can truly enjoy ourselves is when we're forced to? When we've discarded reason.
[ It's obvious he's considering it. His overall experience with candy has been negative, but there have been outliers, and Kim Dokja was one of them. He's quiet for a moment, but then. He will reach for him, holding onto whatever piece of cloth is close enough for him to get ]
... If I ask for them, then it will be to enjoy with you. Only with you.
[ he deliberately chooses the words to mirror the orders Kim Dokja gave him, looking at him, at his reaction to that. ]
because, he does very much remember wanting that, pursuing that, even, but... now he's able to think more clearly, feel the weight of all of his choices and the stories he has. and it feels like he shouldn't want that, shouldn't deserve someone saying something like that to him when it very likely will end up with someone getting hurt and not even on purpose or maybe on purpose because someone thinks they know better than the other.
... and yet, there really is the strong desire to just want to do something good that another person simply enjoys and there's no complications or hangups or even having to think about it.
damn.
what does it say about him, really? always wanting something of a fantasy over the reality?
he's not sure.
but he does reach out a hand to give Anaxa's hair a light tug.]
Then ask for them when you want something like that.
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I do not mind you staying.
[ a pause, then he adds ]
... No, I would like company.
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I do not actually like solitude. And these days have been difficult. As I have said ... the time I spent with you was very enjoyable.
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[okay, actually going to point this out now]
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Is that the kind of company you're wanting?
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I gave you the opportunity to leave. Whether you stay or not is up to you now.
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... I have stashed away a fair amount of those candies. If you ever would like or need that sort of thing.
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... If I ask for them, then it will be to enjoy with you. Only with you.
[ he deliberately chooses the words to mirror the orders Kim Dokja gave him, looking at him, at his reaction to that. ]
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because, he does very much remember wanting that, pursuing that, even, but... now he's able to think more clearly, feel the weight of all of his choices and the stories he has. and it feels like he shouldn't want that, shouldn't deserve someone saying something like that to him when it very likely will end up with someone getting hurt and not even on purpose or maybe on purpose because someone thinks they know better than the other.
... and yet, there really is the strong desire to just want to do something good that another person simply enjoys and there's no complications or hangups or even having to think about it.
damn.
what does it say about him, really? always wanting something of a fantasy over the reality?
he's not sure.
but he does reach out a hand to give Anaxa's hair a light tug.]
Then ask for them when you want something like that.
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... Is that another order? I will remember it.