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[the mood in fact is Resist The Urge To Get Into Another Catty Bitch Fight. weird how candies that turned off their thoughts actually mitigated this a lot?

Kim Dokja having to bite back "Didn't I command you to enjoy it though?" because... "unpleasantness"... is this guy saying every other person was kind of a shithead about those candies?

guy needs better people around him]

I'm not trying to avoid talking about anything meaningful. If you didn't notice, even when affected like that, I'm not that interested in people harming themselves when it comes to doing something for or toward me. That's all it is.

[and then for the more embarrassing thing to say as he crosses his own arms]

... if you found it to be a positive experience, then... I'm glad.

[wow. it was way more embarrassing than he expected, actually]

Edited 2025-08-29 15:50 (UTC)

[ He very clearly is just as embarrassed, because his face goes visibly RED. His frown does nothing to hide it ]

I did notice. And it is part of why I wanted to thank you. With the power you had in your hands, you could have easily commanded me to do worse.

… but you made me stop thinking in a positive way. And I can admit I might have needed that.

... was everyone else just so terrible with how they used those candies?

Should I be bringing this to the attention of your master?

[actually asking instead of just doing it because honestly... he's not even sure. mildly respecting the guy's boundaries here? maybe?]

They were not terrible. I was. You just might be one of the few people I am not able to manipulate into doing what I want.

[ he’s trying to appear flippant but there is a flash of worry when he asks if he should involve his master ]

Edited 2025-08-29 16:06 (UTC)

[x to doubt it just being Anaxa. the man was full of the not thinking and therefore anyone who was capable of thinking should be responsible???]

Few people are able to manipulate me like that.

That does not surprise me. You are infuriating, but you are perceptive. And spiteful enough that you’d refuse as soon as you notice the attempt.

We are very similar, after all.

[horrible thing to admit to aloud...]

... I can't deny that at this point.

Then what is it for you? How do you seek your own oblivion?

[ a pause, then he adds ]

You do not have to answer. I simply wish to understand you.

[looks around the library because.

honestly, it hurts more to admit it to anyone who doesn't really get it?]

... I've already obtained it, once.

My stories were scattered, and the story I wanted to continue would be able to continue because of it. I wouldn't have to be... Kim Dokja any longer.

But something happened, a story somewhere agreed to help a princess with her story, and so.

[gestures at himself, a bit bitterly.]

--it's not that I don't wish there couldn't be another way to go about it. Or that I'm still--... I haven't... settled... on which direction to go about it going forward.

[but also, pursuing Queen for the power for it, regardless.]

[ He doesn’t know what “stories” are, in this context, but he can get the gist of it. He can tell what the heart of the matter is.

They truly are similar ]

You do not need to justify such a feeling with me.

To embrace death, or to live on.

I am also not sure of which path I wish to take.

[and this is why it's... easier.

other people ask questions, trying to convince him not to, or even challenge him on stopping his wish for Queen if it should go in that direction.

it's... weirdly awkward but not to not meet the resistance there.]

At the very least, as a Master, if I get to Queen, I'll have to ensure my Servants' wishes are cared for. Beyond that...

[yeah, still doesn't know.]

Do not forget that I fully intend on obtaining that power for my master. We are still on opposing ends.

That said …

I will not say something as ridiculous as “shed your old identity, and make a new one for yourself”. I know full well how impossible that is. But if I cannot wish happiness for myself, perhaps I can wish it for you instead.

Can someone who can't wish for happiness for themselves wish happiness for others?

Do not be so dense. You wish the same for your Servants, do you not? Even if you do think you can be in the picture for it.

My Master is not different in that regard.

I used the wrong word for that question.

Rather than "can", meaning "capable", the question should be should.

The answer to that is also "yes". Anyone who is not capable of wishing for other people's happiness lacks empathy and humanity.

And that is something I despise.

[...................... don't say it. don't pick the fight. but he is just kind of dead-eyed staring Anaxa down because YOU THINK YOU HAVE ROOM TO JUDGE OTHERS ON THEIR HUMANITY, HUH?]

... most people would find it hypocritical, is what I'm saying.

[ he can tell Kim Dokja must be holding himself back so he will not be even more pedantic and continue on this debate no matter how much he wants to. He's already coming up with arguments and follow up questions in his head but he has to be good. He's here for PEACE ]

Then let's just say that I do not care if it's hypocritical or not. I will wish for you to find happiness regardless of whether it's acceptable for me to do so or not.

Besides, feuding with you has truly been exhausting.

At least you're smarter than others have been in that area.

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Edited 2025-09-02 19:38 (UTC)

Do not make me regret my words already.

Over a compliment?

Wasn't it more a compliment to yourself than it was to me? If you're going to compliment me, do it properly.

[... the moment of wondering if he buttonmashed a certain compliment enough that it might have lingering effects (this will happen in our other thread once not at work)]

Hm...

I can admit you're very beautiful, still.

[ how

dare

HE!?

There are no lingering effects. Not from the candy, at least. The compliment does not give him any extra pleasure and yet it's effective all the same - a mix of memories resurfacing and just embarrassment. He very quickly looks away, his entire face red as he's frowning, trying to hide the embarrassment as best as he can ]

[... heh.

got 'im.]

Was that better?

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