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[... this is also a frequent critique of himself. sighs.]

The Scenarios is something that causes an apocalypse in the world the <Star Stream> broadcasts. It's a system that records and shows the broadcasts of the events of the apocalypse, the Scenarios, to the watching gods and legends called Constellations.

Basically, the first of the Scenarios was one where people had to kill a living organism to survive.

People killed what they could, including humans themselves. I was stuck in a train car with a bunch of commuters, people returning home from work, when it started. There was a kid who had insects in a case. Only five at most. But one had eggs. I could have divvied it out to all of the people there--men, women, children. But instead, I cashed in on killing all the eggs myself and only four others survived.

Those are the kinds of decisions I would make throughout the apocalyptic Scenarios.

Something like "Save the World", I left that for different people who refused to give up such an idealistic view of the world. Instead, I worked with the runners of the Scenarios and even became a Constellation myself. All to get to the end of the Scenarios to tear it all down.

I see. So the situation in my world could very well be described as a "Scenario" as well.

And you have worked your way up to becoming one of the puppeteers behind the scenes, in order to put a stop to that spectacle. Is that correct?

No. I did make my way up and dismantled the "spectacle".

But also. The end result, the reason my stories scattered, and the whole reason why the Scenarios existed and occurred in the first place... they're because I did not want the story to end.

... so you could say I am the puppeteer behind it all. I just didn't know it until then.

[and he's so... feeling some way about it.]

In other words, you are the god who is responsible for other people's suffering.

Bingo!

[ that explains so much. No wonder this man hates himself. It'd be easier if he actually wanted to be responsible for it, but he clearly does not ]

... and these "stories" cannot end until you do, too. But you had to come back because one of them needed you. Correct?

[so so so so many apocalypses, but even worse was the crimes of tormenting certain people without knowing, just by existing. just by reading. a story.]

I don't know exactly what happened with that.

A princess with a library at the edge of the universe... servants of hers asked for help. A story of mine must have answered, because I ended up in that library.

... and I'm still fairly sure. That library's story wasn't altogether different from some things I know.

Do you know what happened after? Have you already reached the "end" of your story?

I don't know.

And my story continued here.

The story I wanted to continue... I assume is continuing, since I am still... here.

[can reread forever even unconsciously and therefore...]

Your story is overly complicated, the twist is simply annoying, and it is in bad taste.

I will make things very unpleasant for you again if you keep up the commentary.

[it's an insult to the author and the protagonist who worked so hard?]

Am I supposed to lie, and say I find it enjoyable? I do not delight in other people's suffering. Not even yours.

How pure and noble of you!

[ there is a sigh at that ]

I am not trying to antagonize you. And I am not trying to prove myself virtuous.

I am also a terrible person.

Yes. You are. Because you'll claim to not delight in other people's suffering, but delight in your own quite a bit!

Hypocrite that you are, do you really have room to comment on what kind of story mine is when you delight in destroying your own so much?

[ ONCE AGAIN he has to stay quiet for a few long moments, though he does let out a little mm of very clear, obvious annoyance. Do not treat Kim Dokja like Aglaea 2.0 Lyle will not be happy and unlike Aglaea this man might just off himself out of spite. Be strong. ]

I see. So this is a limit we could have negotiated earlier. We've found one for you.

[the want to point out that he WARNED HIM--but that does go to prove that they hit a limit and Kim Dokja very much wants to just erase this entire conversation to prevent that limit from being known again.]

Congratulations. I'm sure you're very proud of yourself in finding that and then when the conversation turns itself back to you, you won't acknowledge any limits because that would be admitting that you do have an area you don't like to have torn open.

I'd hate for you to have to admit such a thing to yourself.

...

My sister is one such limit. I've recently discussed her, and my feelings regarding her death, with Linnea. And I shut down.

It is not as if I believe I have none. It's simply easier to ignore them than acknowledge them.

What else do I need to share before you start thinking you have an equivalent amount of ammo against me? I will do that.

How about the fact that this means you lied earlier?

You had a known limit. You just didn't want to say it.

[this... this is what frustrates him! he was being honest! joke's on him! should stop doing that with this guy!]

I did not think it counted as one before I saw your reaction. I was reminded of my own and realized it now.

I am willing to let you put me on another forced obedience effect, if it would make you see that my attempts of understanding are sincere. Will you try to understand me as well?

[doesn't really believe that excuse, he definitely wouldn't put it passed this guy to lie about it and then make such a claim.

but he at least doesn't say that.]

... I'm sorry for your loss.

[he can at least acknowledge that much.]

I don't... know if obedience will necessarily lead to an understanding. And I don't know what will make me feel as if I have an equal measure of someone like you.

[ that's a bit better, so it at least makes him less of a hissy cat. ]

I did not mean to antagonize you with my commentary. And I apologize for hurting you with it. I will not be so careless again.

... As for my own limit. Linnea tried to comfort me by forwarding a hypothesis that she may have lived happily in different cycles. Different versions of the life I knew. That there must have been millions of lifetimes in which she wasn't taken early.

And that it was not my fault that she died.

That is what I could not accept and hear.

[ It's obvious he's saying that to level the playing field, deliberately giving him ammo against him ]

[the furrowed brow is one of someone who is. seeing a similarity. in someone that is NOT himself. and that's... hm. unsure how to feel about that.]

... in my experience, a brother isn't likely to find comfort in that. They'd rather keep suffering hell to make sure that their sister is safe in any timeline.

[Yu Junghyeok's feelings toward his sister... complicated but. just as extreme, honestly. never once forgave himself for any times she ended up dying, but especially not the first time.]

So it's not a tactic I would take to comfort someone.

...mm. It had the opposite effect. All the more so because I do remember two different timelines. The circumstances were different, but she still died.

[ a pause, and then he adds ]

You know someone who is trying to bring a loved one back, then.

... a regressor. Someone who could restart his life at the beginning of the Scenarios.

But it didn't mean he could bring anyone back.

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